You will have significant experiences.
I hope that you will write them down and keep a record of
them, that you will read them from time to time and refresh
your memory of these meaningful and significant things.
Some may be funny. Some may be significant only to you.
Some of them may be sacred and quietly beautiful. Some
may build upon another until they represent a lifetime of
special experiences.
- Gordon B Hinckley

Monday, May 11, 2015

Finding Normal...

Dear Family and Friends,

Zac and I are slowly finding our temporary normal.  I went back to work two weeks ago (thus the slow down in updates) and Zac has started physical therapy.  He is doing very well physically.  His therapy has been focusing on strengthening his legs and core, with the exception of his back.  Therapy wears him out but he’s so happy to be working on his recovery.  His pain has increased a little, as he’s pretty sore after his sessions, but the type of pain he’s experiencing is totally different than what he was enduring before.  For that he is thankful.  He will start radiation sometime this week.  He is able to drive himself which is a huge blessing.  He will not be able to return to work until four weeks after his course of radiation is complete.  So it will be quite a while before he’s back into his normal routine.  He been focusing on getting out of the house everyday, even if it’s just to pick up Everett from school. 

Emotionally this past week has been hard.  I’m not home during the day (I’m working an extra day while he’s off to bring in some more income) and he’s not used to being home during the week.  He has cabin fever combined with a feeling of loss of purpose.  For a man who is so dedicated to his job, to not be able to provide for his family has been frustrating.  He’s also just starting to process everything that happened.  I don’t think he quite realized how sick he was and how close he came to a less functional life.  He’s working through the emotional toll of being hospitalized and the ramifications of his current physical state.  There is also a fear of the unknown as he starts radiation.  He’s dealing with a lot.  

The kids are doing great!  It’s been so long since Zac was physically able to care for them that they’ve required very little coaching on being cautious around him.  Everett has developed some new independence out of necessity.  Reece is walking everywhere, which adds a new level of fun to our house.  We continue to have so much support.  I haven’t had to cook dinner since we came home!  And there hasn’t been a day without an email or text just checking in on how we are doing.  You all are so amazing and have done so much to lift us up!  You may think a simple text or quick meal can’t really make a difference but trust me, they do!  We love you all and are so thankful you are on this journey with us.  It really does take a village.  


The Bollinger Family

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